Today’s ride started out with the best of intentions. 3hrs easy. It was a beautiful day outside. Warm, little wind, and the entirity of West Marin at my fingertips. I shouldn’t be complaining, should I?
Yet, it was just one of those days. Those days where your legs are heavy, your heart isn’t in it, and your beautiful ride becomes a sticky drudge. You are no longer floating on the pedals, you are stamping. You are moving like molasses. All you want is the ride to be over, yet you keep moving slower…and slower…and slower… My normal 3hr loop took 3.5hr.
Whatever happened, I did not feel the love today. Normally in this instance, I would just turn around, head home, and call it a day. This week is a rest week, and the training isn’t pivotal. However, once I realized my hopeless ride, I was at the “point of no return”. The point where it was just as far to turn around and head home, as it was to keep the same route. Ugh. I was frustrated and feeling sorry for myself. I know I am not going to get any sympathy for this. I was on Hwy1, it was 92degrees, and I had a tailwind (kinda, more like a crosswind–if you ask me). I considered hitchhiking home, but then noted that probably wouldn’t be the best idea…
When under these conflicting feelings, your mind goes into overdrive and I desperately was trying to find the happy balance…finding something. I tried to hunt for blackberries, and found none. At the end of the day, I mucked through it, yet was frustrated with my poor attitude. I guess some days you have it, and some days you don’t.
I might be ready for a change. A day off the bike tomorrow, maybe a run or a walk…then on to the Best Buddies Challenge this weekend. Riding from Carmel to Hearst Castle. I am excited to ride with the SVB guys and I am happy to be doing it for such a great cause!
Ah. Life is good, I guess I am just expressing that even on the best days, we can have a bad day. Lucky for me, I didn’t hitchhike, I made it home, and it was a beautiful day to be outside. With the best of intentions, I ended the day with my feet up the couch, eating a good dinner, and thanking God for my many blessings.